Lost Its Shine

My secret tumblr lost its attraction. Maybe I'll go public and make a secret blogspot. As of right now, only like 2 people, other than my self, has actually seen this. I wonder what would happen if I publicized it and have people with-no-life just look at my previous blogs, my naive post, my infatuation, my paranoia, my issues, my problems, my heart on the line.

I wonder what they would think of me, what they would say. I wonder how they would see me, if they would see me any different. If they would treat me differently because I fall hard, that I jump to conclusions, that care too much, that I worry too much, that I am me. I wonder if that would change anything.

I come to the conclusion that you don't need me, well I've known that for a while but now, I'm accepting it. You're a big boy, you can take care of yourself. You know your limits. I hope you don't try to go pass them. If you want to talk, then talk to me. If you want to whine, whine to me, and etc etc. I'll be here for you if you need it.

I also realized that I miss you quite terribly. Its like in the few moments I spent with you recently, I'm put back to about 1 year ago, when we first started. This may seem foolish and I may be in over my head, but that's nothing new. I don't know if this is just a rebound for me, but I do miss you. It makes me happy to make you smile.

I think I'm just a foolish kid with his heart at his head and his head in the clouds but hey, what can I say? I'm a helpless romantic :]