Wow

I'm feeling a bit relaxed right now.

It amazes me how I can put so much trust on to this page left on the internet; How I can spill my guts in the form of text on this blog. Its a great reliever of whatever is bothering me; It gives me something to do; It gives me a way to look back on how things were.

I don't know whats going on between me and my parents anymore. Its like I can't even talk to them. Its just...awkward. Then again, they never really talked to me for no reason.

I think that's why I turn to my blog so much. Its something I can tell everything to, and have people give me feed back, or at least those who choose to or who I share this with. They can give me the advice one would normally expect from a parent. It still bothers me, the fact that I won't have the bond with my parents that a lot of people have with at least one of their parents. I did try, but it never worked out. I guess it won't happen.

I'm getting pretty nervous for my interview today. I hope it goes well. I really want that job. It may be a second job, but that gives me something to do this summer, maybe the year. And, it gives me money in the bank, something I NEED. My parents have stopped giving me money and I need some to survive. I can't keep eating the same routine food here anymore. I need an escape. My stomach has been getting weaker and I can eat a lot of the same foods anymore. I can barely finish the foods I would eat. This is scaring me. I hope things get better.

Sky High later today. I hope I get that money for it.

I'll probably add more later.
enjoi