I love my Grandma

Period.

PS RIPMJ
PPS My parents depress me.

They don't trust me and they want me to wake up at 8. Why waste my day? My parents don't want me to leave my phone and laptop downstairs because "You stay up too late." I'm like, "Its summer, I'm going to be sleeping in, and staying up!" Fucking shit. Other than that, I've had my phone in my room for YEARS. Why should I put it there now? I mean, I've talked on the phone pretty late before and now that its SUMMER, I have to put it away? I try to ask my dad if I can keep it with me but he just snaps at me. I can't stand it anymore! FUCK. I honestly hate being in this position. My mom treats me like I'm 5, my dad treats me like I'm worthless and is always snapping at me after stressing after work and mom. He always gives me ultimatums. Whether its for TKD, or my phone, whatever, he always snaps at me. My grandma told me she feels bad for me, my brother, and my dad. But she feels really bad for me, that I deal with all this, the way they treat me, their expectations, all these extracurriculars, things that I want to do. She can't stand it anymore. She doesn't want to visit anymore once my brother and I leave. I feel really bad for her. Fuck, I'm crying again... I haven't cried like this since the whole Orange incident. I'm getting a headache too. I want to move out, but I'm not finacially stable enough to do that. Speaking, of Orange, they deleted me off of myspace, DL, facebook, and blocked me off of AIM. Asshole. But back to that, I don't know what to do. My parents wonder why I go out so much, I can't stand to stay here bored all day! They say I spend too much time on the computer! WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO OTHER THAN TV?! FUCK! Seriously. My parents depress me. Can't wait for VYC. A mini vacation at a school I may want to go to.

On the bright side, I now have mouse ears with my name on it :D

I still cannot stand my parents. I wish my parents would actually show that they love me and make me fell like they do instead of guilting me "/

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