Today

Feels like failure. I didn't finish/remember my choreo. I didn't get home on time. I didn't finish the poster. I didn't find that book I was looking for. I didn't talk to you.

I don't even know what to say. I got over it last night dancing. I was on the way to the library and I got hella nervous. I thought you would've been gone already by the time I got there; Man, was I wrong. I saw you from a afar, and I walked in the other direction to get in to find I couldn't find my book and I waited for my bus instead. I see you across the street, "text" you "hi" and receive no response. And what do I do? I dance, duh. I suck but I do it anyways. Practice makes perfect right? So Cristal calls me and then I go back in and say hi to a mutual friend. Then I leave again.

I really wish we could talk. I hate figuring things out over AIM, it feels like a wall is blocking the truth. It feels like there's so much more that can and/or should be said. I have to say. I really do miss you "/

I hate how something similar to this ALWAYS happens before my birthday. Last year, the year before, the year before, freshman year I had finals ON my birthday. So much for a completely happy 18th birthday.