Remind Me

To not get my hopes up again. Especially when it comes to relationships.

I can't take much more of this. I sound repetitive, but its true. I keep getting my hopes up, but every time I get close to being "official", it all falls apart. And the worse part is, every time this happens, I get scared because I think they have found someone else. Someone better

I don't know why I get so paranoid. It sucks because I just hella dwell on it. And its hard not to think about that. It happened so many times before. Fuck my life.

I'm scared I'm never gonna live that dream. I'm scared that if I open up, they'll turn me away. I'm scared that if they say they won't treat me differently, that they will. I'm scared of being left for someone better. I'm scared of being that hurt again.

But I'll have to take those risks eventually