Its been a while since I updated this thing. I guess tonigh is a good night to update. It is a teary eyed night after all.

I wish things wouldn't go back to normal, only because normal would mean not meeting you. It would mean I never danced with you, I never spent all those lovely days with you. I never got to know you; your past, your present, your future dreams. It would mean I would shut myself off from trying to find someone to fall on. It would mean I quit.

I mean at least I tried. I didn't quit without a fight, and I don't want to quit altogether, but at the same time, I don't want to try for nothing. I don't want to risk more tears. I don't want to risk more pain. I don't want to risk getting this feeling anymore.

I want to go, like my fortune cookie said, on a faraway pleasnt journey. On an asthetic retreat from Milpitas, CA and all the areas I seem to spend my days. I want to be able to relax with no worries. I want Hakuna fucking Matata.

Someone give me that.