How strange. Today I touched his hand for the first time since new years. If I could italicize, I would. It was so strange because my heart skipped a beat.

I noticed it today. He's adorable when he's happy. But I wonder, why did that happen? I mean, he hates me. With no apparent reason to do so. How can that happen?

I'm so confused on whats going on with my heart and my head :(