My heart is split, I start to cry.
My chest is heavy, my breath is weak.
My stomach's nauseous, tears down my cheek.
Good feelings lost, sad feelings gained.
These teardrops fall, like pouring rain.
My heart is lost, nowhere to go.
I'll pass the day, fake smiles to show.
Its a lame poem I know, but its really the truth. I had a facade today, a really big one. It looked like I was happy, but, I'm not. I need a hug, and a shoulder to cry on. My chest hurts, my stomach is in knots. I just lost someone I cared for a lot. Okay, I'm done with lame rhyming.
TKD later today. Birthday is coming up, not really as excited anymore, I'm thinking about calling it off but I probably won't. It would probably cheer me up a bit.
Orange, if you read this, don't feel guilty. Its not your fault alone, its both of ours. I'm crying right now but its my fault for rushing it. I really wish you'll take back all of that, because, unlike D, I'm here. I can care for you, keep you company, entertain you, be your shoulder to lean on. I'm willing to find a way somehow. If not, I'm probably going to be like you, like the way you are for D. And please, stop apologizing. Its not completely in your control. I'll be fine sooner or later. You're not the first one to do this.
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