I Hate It

I hella over drafted and now I lost those privileges. But now my laptop and phone past 11?! What the hell.

I've had my phone in my room for the past 7 years now, why are you going to change it. You don't like the fact that I'm online talking to my friends at night? Its because its the only time I can. We're all busy with our lives to the point where we can only talk at night. Why does it matter what time I go to sleep? You want me to behave like an adult, yet you put all these limits on me. I don't understand why you have to make me sleep at 11. I'm 17 and in college. I'm working hard and doing my best to do well this year. Why are you punishing me. Most adults I know, 23+ don't sleep until 1 or later, and trust me, I know plenty. I really don't think that is necessary. Why are you doing this? I've been up later doing things and I'm not disrupting anyone am I? I'm in my room keeping to myself like I've done in the past. Why should it matter if I go to sleep late? You don't even give time to at least hear out my compromise or my reasoning.

I just don't get it.

Sore

Like a crazy mother fucker.

Long day yesterday. Tet Trung Thu wasn't as fun as it usually is. I didn't get to hang out with my church kids like I normally would. Yesterday was a hot, sweaty, long, tiring, busy day full of PRACTICE. D; Drum I-YAAAAAH. Hahaha Dragon didn't do shit.

Today, practice was long, hot, and sweaty. Hahaha. We learned a new drum. It was interesting and I like it a lot. OffBEAST have been demoted but today we (kinda) redeemed ourselves. OffBEAZ-ys ahah. Santa Rosa, here we come :]

:DDDDD

FUCK

Overspent -__-

Insomnia Revisited, Again

But for a good reason.

I think this one is right. That this pavement I'm chasing is one to keep on going on.

YAY!

I found my glasses I lost and I got a new bento! :]

Faithless

I don't understand how my parents have so little faith in me. I really wish I settled for SFSU now. Not only because of Wong, but so I can also dorm. I would be out of their control. I mean yea, I'd be home every weekend or so, but being free from that control would be great. Their lack of faith depresses me. I have 3 classes and they're like, you can't fuck around, you have to focus on school and only school. Um yea, I have hella other shit that I focus on, you honestly don't think I can't focus on school too? Thanks. I appreciate the lack of support I get from both of you, IN ANYTHING I FUCKING DO.

Seriously, the only time I get ANY support is if I ask for it. My fucking black belt test cuts, you didn't want to go, YOU DIDN'T FUCKING STAY! You we're there for what, 10 min? And then you left 'cause you were bored. The second cuts, you don't even stay. You dropped us off and had us get rides home. Its like you sign me up, or I choose to do something, you don't care. You care if I'm home on time. You care if its something that you can control, but you don't care if I like it. Seriously. I'm tired of it all

&PS
I wish you could cheer me up

You're the king of assholes. You offer to pay for the concert and now you want me to pay you back...hella later. After you bitch at me over something stupid? Yea I'll pay you back, but its probably the last you'll get from me.

FUCK

WHY ARE YOU KILLING MY POST GOOD DAY BUZZ

My mom is a bitch. End of disscussion

Today

Was a good day :]

Spent time with Wong ALL DAY. Good food, pokemon, and awkward moments together haha. Sounds like the best, and it was.

UNTIL FUCKING DOUCHENOZZLE MICHEAL WAS BEING FUCKING IMMATURE AND BLOWING SHIT OUT OF PROPORTION. WHERE THE HELL IS ALL THIS HATE COMING FROM?! FUCKING A!

The Golden Compass

I wish I had one. Would make life so much better. That and a Daemon.

I'm rewatching the movie. I haven't seen it since I was dating you know who back in '07. We'll name them 10. I really like the movie, I like the book a whole lot more. Its a really good series although I didn't get into the books. It makes me wonder about a lot. Like if we had daemons, I'd probably be super happy ahah. My lonely moments are non existent. But that world seems so much more complicated so maybe not.

Man does that last paragraph sound weird. Anyways, City trip tomorrow, gonna hang out with Wong! And then I must wait till the week after to hang out with Wong cause they're busy. I wish Wong could come down for Tet Trung Thu. That would be awesome :]

I fail at life. I won't elaborate. I'm stupid. Fail.


And yea...

200 Post! :D

And Because

This is Post 199 :]

Name: Kevin Nguyen
Date: 9/15/2009
Colorgenics Number: 14203567

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

You have a high opinion of yourself. It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offense.

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

And as usual, its on the dot. Now goodnight :]

I Hope You Get Better

Wong is sick, so I hope you get better :]

You both are fucking sick. I hope you both become better people.

I need to fix a lot of shit. I hope things get better.

@MyAnh

That is hella cute.


Today was a good day.

Getting lost. Getting full. Fail at a bonfire. Getting to spend time with Wong. All worth it. :]

Fuck you :)

I'm hella happy haha

And to Kill Time

And get my mind off of that jackass. From FB :D

This is the Layer Cake, covering different parts of your life.

11 Layers of Me

-Layer One: On the Outside-
Name: Kevin Nguyen
Birthday: January 20, 1992
School: De Anza College
College Major: Chemical Engineering
Minor: Theology
Current Location: Milpitas, CA
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark Brown
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius :D

-Layer Two: On the Inside-
Your Heritage: Vietnamese Chinese
Your Fears: Falling flat on my face
Weakness: Falling too fast
Goal: Peace with my complications
Change one thing about your life: Actually trying in High School
Relieve Stress: PUNCHING BAG
Hardest thing ever dealt with: Being cheated on
What upsets you: A lot

-Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow-
Your thoughts first waking up: 5 more minutes
Your bedtime: Whenever I fall asleep, usually 11-3
Your most missed memory: When things weren't so complitcated

-Layer Four: You’re picking-
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: BK Mocha Joe's ftw
Single or Group dates: Both
Adidas or Nike: Nikes
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Arizona
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Ca phe sua da!

-Layer Five: Do You?-
Do Drugs: -
Have a crush: Yessir
Think you've been in love: In and Out "/
Want to get married: Maybe
Believe in yourself: Not always
Think you're a health freak: At times. I blame Ms Potts.

-Layer Six: In the Past Month-
Drank alcohol: HAHA
Gone to the mall: Today
Eaten Sushi: Sendai <3
Gone skating: Yeap
Dyed your hair: Nope
Done something exciting: My life is boring

-Layer Seven: Have You Ever?-
Played a stripping game: HAHA
Gotten beaten up: Sparring
Changed who you were to fit in: Kinda but I grew out of it
Hid something from someone: Oh yeah.

-Layer Eight: Getting Old-
Age your hoping to be married: Idk By 30
Age to start having children: See above
Want to travel to: The world

-Layer Nine: Perfect Mate-
Best Eye Color: Don't matter
Best Hair Color: Dont't matter
Short or Long Hair: SHORT! :]

-Layer Ten: What were you doing-
...1 MINUTE AGO: This
1 HOUR AGO: Downtown SJ
1 DAY AGO: Swimming with Tabs and Ughle
1 YEAR AGO: School, ASB, SHIT

-Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence-
I LOVE: Food :3
I FEEL: Pissed
I HATE: a lot of things
I HIDE: My trust
I MISS: a lot
I NEED: peace.

Random

wave of depression. I need a pick me up now.

We need drivers for Friday. As of right now, we have 1 driver for sure, we have 6 people that need a way there in a 4-5 person car -__- . I kinda want to invite more people but we need to make sure we have enough drivers first. And then food. And finding a spot. AND WOOD AND SHIT D;

I don't really want to talk about it. I don't need to be trippin over the shit. Its just going to make me feel worse.

WONG, CHEER ME UP.

I need a large thai tea, small pearls ASAP.

PS: THANKS JERK. Talking to you just made me feel hella worse
PPS: I'm so lost right now. This is as specific as I will ever get with this blogspot. I don't know what I want, I think I do, but is it the right thing? I need some reasoning as to why I should do this or that or just stop. I'm arguing with my self and its not good. Save me please.

Again

Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offense for the slightest reason.

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

You're Dead to me.

Biggest fucking waste of my time, like everyone said.

Thank God for Wong :]

&&
the sound of the ocean is calming. This violet sky is amazing. I know its only been a day but I miss you. I wish you were here with me to see this :)

got me hella sprung

Fuck. I'm sprung haha AGAIN. Oh boy, I hope this one last ''/

Today was a good day

The City is always a good time.

Blondies, BK Mocha Joe, Quickly's (a bad one though), Sweet Potato Fries, &Chili's. Yum :]

Got to hang out with Wong today. I'm really happy that I did. It was so much fun. Though I found out something I didn't particularly like, but its ok. As long as its not around me for me to see/taste, I'm good :D.
Thanks for making my City trip a great one ♥

SO TIRED NOW, BUT SO WORTH IT. No beach tomorrow. No money. I WANNA GO THOUGH D:

School needs to start soon.

+

Paul Vu looks like JunHo from 2PM.

&&Alex's Pinholes look cooler than mine >.>

2 Sucessful Visits :]

Nick say Hi :]

So for the past two days, I've been on campus visits!

Yesterday was my SJSU visit. As Tammy said it, "FOOL, THAT'S STRAIGHT UP HOMIE HOPPIN."
I went from Jade and Lawrence, to Tammy and Nick, to Camille haha. It was nice hanging out with them though :]. So when I got to the library to play catch up with Camille, we had our twiin time, then Jade came, and then Phillip came, then Phillip and Camille left, and then Jade came with Rei. And then Lawrence came :D. It was a good day.
Iguana's with Jaders, the BEASTfriend, and Lawrence, the new friend.
Penguin Froyo TamTams and Nick
Quickly's with Jaders and Rei
Good day!

Today I dropped off food for Anita at Indy and walked around with Pony :] Looked for Victoria but failed to find her cause I forgot to save her number. Fail. Ran into Randy, gross, and Ceci! Yay! I saw Jonathan and I talked to Dinh, she makes me want to be at Indy's ASB haha. Best adult to talk to EVER. So yea. Fun stuff :]

So Wong and I have the cutest goodbyes. I'm excited to see Wong tomorrow :]

YAY PRODUCTIVITY. Beach Saturday! :]

Notes; cannot fall too hard

Too Fast?

Maybe but I'm ok with that. I'm kinda scared of the consequences, cause I fall hard "/

We'll see what happens.

So apparently that homewrecking fucker is in the bay. Best hope I don't fucking see his ass or its going down.

And I'm sore.

I want to dance with you again :]

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So I fail at being productive. I started a new bracelet for Wong though. Looks like Thao's but its different

So the week looks like this

Weds: SJSU and meet up with HELLA KIDS.
Thurs: Bike to Indy and have lunch with Anita and co.
Fri: City with Tabs and UghLe, maybe sleep over at cousin's apt. HANG OUT WITH WONG!
Sat: If I sleep over at Nhu's, Hang out with Wong again. If not, SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE
Sun: Van Nghe all day errryday. YM? Cause I'll probably look and feel like shit.

Note to self: Must be productive. &Buy vegetarian dumplings for Sunday.

Hi Nick :D