Waking Into Reality

from the strangest dream to date.

I woke up about an hour ago from a really weird dream. It had a lot to do with my experience last night. It was like my experience turned into some whack cartoon/tv show.

So I was in the car with a couple of people. And we were on our way to somewhere (Don't remember where). We got pulled over and we were surveyed. I guess we ran out of gas a while after that and pulled into this town. This town was hella run down. And not to be racist, but it was full of awkward Middle Eastern people. We went to this big gas station attached to a rundown BK. We were about to order food but then suddenly cops came and started badgering us. They had really creepy looking vaccines. It seems that the questions they asked us were not things why wanted to hear. So we were going to get vaccinated to fix our wrongs. We were going to be vaccinated for the stupidest things, like being gay from wanting to go Southeast Asia. I was like what? I ran and hid. Took the car and grabbed everyone in. We drove and drove as far as we could, but they had a gang of people chasing us. Like they woudn't stop chasing us. Our car ran out of gas fast. So we started running. They wouldn't stop chasing us. We hid but they found us. Everyone finished getting their shots but me. They all told me, just get your shots its good for you. I was like no. Why should I change how I am just because people don't agree with what I believe.

Yea that was my dream. Pretty weird. I woke up before it could continue. And now I'm my friends biggest regret. Thanks.

MPM Picnic today but I don't know how I'm gonna get there or what I'm gonna bring. I want to get some sushi. A spicy crunch sounds great right now.

KBye

This blog has no need for a clever or "punny" title.

Today started off as a good day. Everything was going smooth. Made good food, finished my portfolio, got my coffee, had some fun at the mall, got a lot of job apps. Everything was fun. So I decided to go to the youth "rally" at SJB. I'm like, "Sure, it'll be fun. Youth Rallies usually are." SIKE. This totally ruined my day. I have a headache from it. It started off as a lot of fun. Music playing, me dancing, having a good time. Then the talk started and we all got really bored. Matt went missing after a while. We just sat there and chilled and stuff. Matt came back and we tried to leave but the wouldn't let us. We ended up getting out and just chillin outside. This is where things go way downhill. I get into a little argurment with Kelsey, and Matt tells me sometimes you scare me. And I was like why? We're hella chill with each other. I tell you everything, for the most part. Apparently they were doing some wierd ass shit in there. They would ask you questions and if you didn't answer at all or answer the way they wanted you, they'd hit you. It would be a gentle hit, but they would still hit you. I'm thinking, what the fuck. Thats just wrong. One of the questions was how do you feel about gay people. Matt thought they were cool people. He got hit. I don't understand this. We were raised and taught to love everyone, that God created everyone as equal, that we are who he made us to be. Why hate? This struck me as brain wash. As being more occult than spirtual and religous. I mean it was weird when they wouldn't let us leave when we couldn't go out to breathe, but when they made Lillian, who isn't even Catholic, stay, I thought that was fucked up. We got her out though and we just chilled for a while. Jane came and told us they did this prayer thing where everyone would fall. I was like ok, lets see whats going on. I was watching it and it looked like they were forcing something on you; Like they were forcing someting into you. I couldn't take this anymore. I didn't want to partake in that. People told me I should've done it. It would've been good. I was like no, I won't. I don't want to have anything forced on me. I have a mind of my own. We have every right to have our own beliefs. You shouldn't be forcing the church beliefs on to the youth, onto the future. As this continued, this struck me more as a CULT. This took religion to an extreme. It was scaring me. People who were really open minded, closed thier beliefs. I was going to break down. I honestly started to break down. Tony was there with me for that too. I just stayed outside for the rest of that with CMT. I had some interesting talks with Joseph Tran. Me and Tony were really out of it. Tony had more of a reason to be than I did but I took it worse. We pretty much had an F*Bombing and it cleared things up a bit. Matt reassured me and told me things are cool, that hes still the same person. That made me feel better. My dad came and I took my cousin home. And I was talking to Peter and Jon. I feel like stoging but I know I shouldn't. I want to do something to get my mind off of everything. This event changed my views on everything. Do I really want to be a part of all this. I love God and everything he's done for me, but is it really necessary to have all these occult rituals. These strange processes. These unfair morals. I'm questioning my faith more than ever now. I need St. Joes. I need a retreat. "Its like I'm going into my own little avatar state and I'm about to berserk." Honestly, I have so many mixed emotions right now. I'm going to break down again.

For those of you who read this, Don't worry to much. I'll be fine. If not, I pull a pretty good facade.

God, help me here. I don't even know anymore. Help me find my way back into your comfort. Guide me into a sense of security. Lead me into a bounty of love and help me create joy in my time of dispair.

Even now I still turn to you. My pessimism is getting stronger. Help restore my faith.

PS Where are you? I need the warmth of your loving arms more than ever now...

Fcking A

I need to start working soon.

So Jon just called me and told me that Kevin (yes, my manager's name is also Kevin) hired a new girl and tells him that I might work in the summer?! I'm like WTF. I fcking need this job. Like I need to work ASAP so I can pay shit off. I have school fines, school fees, money I owe people, money I owe my DAD. I need to pay that shit off now. And plus, I want Evisus, which are like about 200, which is almost a pay check. So, I NEED TO FUCKING WORK SOON.

Today was uneventful. Working out was my highlight. Congrats to Hai and Dan for both graduating. Now its my turn... and Joe's, Camille's, Vy's, Hue's, Quoc's, Therese's, and Theresa's turn. I made sushi about an hour ago but I'm hella full so I have a lot left over. Like I think like 2 rolls cause my dad and uncles have been eating the left overs. I ate like 1 roll. I think me being sick is making me lose my appetite.

So DeAnza is making me mad cause I haven't gotten my email from them yet about the orientation classes. I want to take summer classes but I need to go to placement testing. Maybe I'll go thursday.

And yea, Van Nghe tomorrow. Hope I get better. I have to wake up at like 630 and get to St Pats at like 730. Fuuun. Maybe I'll drive there. Who knows, I drove there yesterday.

Oh and Happy Birthday Mom.

Kbye

Shadows

are fun to play with.

Today was interesting. I had 2 shadows, well technically 3. 8th graders from Rancho/Russel came today to "shadow" us for a while and my kids were cool. They learned how to play NINJA. Herra Exciting. They better join PUSO. I mean since I am gonna be driving hella asses around, you might as well :]

So other than that, nothing really exciting. I can go on and say how much fun and crowded having Tri and Lareeza(?) around but I won't. What I 'll do though is post up my picture that I printed today picked by my new friends Tri and Lareeza :]

AND BAM

I'm happy with that. Just need to reprint to avoid spot toning. Then hella sheets to go :D

Kbye

PS I want to fall asleep in your arms

Hearts

in my sushi :]

So, Happy Birthday Michelle Tabios! Hope it was a good one! Your puppy is super duper cute!

So I made sushi for her birthday and it was really good! And the contact sheets of my negatives are up on Flickr and Face Book! Tell me what you want to get printed! I need to know asap!

I'm full for once. :]
Its short today but it was a good day for the most part.

KBye

PS Where are you mi amor?

Mango Tart

is possibly the best flavor of yogurt at Frozo's Milpitas.

Its 6th period right now and I don't really have much to do. I want to plan the MPM BBQ. I'm thinking Lake Cunningham? Or maybe Cataldi. We'll see what we'll do.

So this morning I randomly become depressed. It was weird, I just randomly got sad. I was gonna tell Mamtara about it but he had to go. However, he called me and we talked. So I just let it out. I don't want to leave anymore. After Tribes, I want to stay to help make next year better as an officer. I mean yea, I'm historian but I didn't really do much except take pictures. Oh well, I have faith that next year, we'll win. And then I just talked to the pet hamster for a while. We talked about a bunch of random things. And its like we just had whatever was on our mind in that convo. It was good and it made me feel better and I'm happy with that. No wonder you're my brother :]

So I developed my negatives today and I got sad. My last roll of film that MP helped me buy didnt completly turn up. I was so excited to print that roll too. The first 2 turned out fine. A couple of light meter problems and some wasted frames and ONE blurry picture, but all in all fine. I'll print out a contact sheet for all of them tomorrow :]

I got more mango tart today. It was delicious. Now I want some dollar milk tea. And I still want that JammSession with MP. CassEda&Kevin ft Chris/Jester on guitar, Marky on beatbox, "Amber" on the Uke, and Tony dancing :D

and yea
KBye

PS I really do miss you. Its sad

Let Down

its fucking hot and I've been let down yet again. Thanks.

Seriously, it sucks to be let down, again and again. I'm like ok I guess. Don't make plans if you're not going to follow through.

Nothing happened today. I was supposed to go swimming but I've been let down.

Kbye

PS I need someone to cheer me up. JammSessions sounds good right about now.

PPS I got some fro-yo. I'm good :] Mango Tart <3

Sunday Morning

and its a fucking heatwave.

So HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO KIM NGO! And HAPPY 18th TO CELINA RIMANDO! So today was De Anza's open house. Ran into Janella, Vince, Elizabeth, and KwokKwok. Saw Bo and Cobb. Hung out with Michelle Tabios and Charles Le like all day today. So I ran into them at De Anza and then we just hung out. Then she invited me to go swimming with Maryann Bangsal, Brooklyn, Steph, and Nisa. And then Vince and Rusil got the invite too and yea we had our fun. Then we went to get food. We were gonna go to Dennys but we went our seperate ways and Tabs, Ughle, Nisa, Brook, Rusil, and myself went to World Gourmet buffet. The food was alright but the time we spent there was hella fun. Then we dropped Nisa off at work and walked around the mall a bit. And then my house for Rockband and I got ready for the SPS Ball. I was at the ball for like 15 min then I went to Vince's. I scared Peach and played with Sophie. We we're going to go bowling but we went night swimming instead. That was fun. I realize that we are really indecisive.

So I highly doubt I'm going to be at Van Nghe today too. Its really late. And I won't wake up on time. Jess and I had a really cool talk. And I want another JamSession :]

MPM get-togethers yea?!
Into the Group

Wheel Barrel

There are a bit of pics from Battle. More HERE!

KBye :]

PS Imy

MPM

is the greatest. I don't care what place we got, we rocked it.

Battle of the tribes was pretty epic. We got 4th out of 8 other schools and BEST TEE SHIRT DESIGN! It was out first year in a long time and it definitely won't be the last you hear from Milpitas. We beat all the schools that I wanted to beat . Me and Kevin Miranda did hella good on the wheel barrel race. I thought it would've been a lot longer. I'm sad though, this ends MPM for a long time. This past month working with them has been great. I met a lot of great people and made plenty of new friends. I can't wait to start printing out our pictures. If I could I would dry mount them all but I cant. I want to frame all of them though. It would be awesome if I could. Well, it depends on how the negatives turned out first. All I can say, we really have become kinda like a family :]

So pictures will be up soon. Marky has the camera. As for mine? It will take a LONG while because its film and I have to develop it myself and print it too and I don't have photo paper. It should be fine.

We should just plan random chill days. And things will get easier too, once I start driving :]

Can't wait to hang out with you guys again and to have one of our JamSessions :D

KBye

PS Before I forget, Be one of my best friends yea? I can talk to you hella easy and you seem like a cool guy to be around, so yea? :]

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I have a stomachache and I can't buy food.

So my dad wouldn't give me money today because its for something outside of school and he got really anal and it made me mad becuase like, he'll give my brother money for ANYTHING. And like he won't give me money for anything. I already try not to get rides from them to save them time but then they can't give me money for food? Honestly, food really importnant. I've been using my lunch money to pay for other things and I haven't been able to eat lunch at school. And I can't bring lunch because the food will taste wierd when I bring it to school. Besides that, my mom is making the same thing, EVERY SINGLE WEEK. Its getting tiresome eating the same thing every day, over and over again. I want some hashbrowns.

Well I'm in photo and I felt like blogging just 'cause it sucks to have to deal with with this so early in the morning. Fck, I forgot my digital. Battle of the Tribes is today and our shirt is hella sick. Shit, I need to eat soon. Uggh. I want to have another JamSession with Chris and CassEda. And a new best friend :D

And yea won't blog until until saturday night sooo

Byee :D

Tribes

Is tomorrow, and I'm excited.

So I started on my portfolio today and I hope it comes out well. Practice was alright today. Went through it a lot. Its gonna be SICK. So I want to make someone my new best friend, just cause I wouldn't mind having another guy I can tell practically everything too(Andrew you already know everything).

I'm so excited for everythaaang. This weekend ends my stress. I WANT TO MEET LYDIA PAEK. And yea. Short blog for today but,
MPM for ya ♥

Driving

is so tiresome haha

So like I found a picture of my REDefine Poster

There are parts that I like and don't like but its chill.

So today was whatever. Seriously nothing special really happened. SIKE. I got my cap and gown today! And Junior Prom pictures! They're really nice :D


But other than that nothing special happened. Btw, if you know what I mean, I failed; and I lost the game. :]

Uggh. Teyona Won. I knew it was going to happen. I was hoping Allison would win. SHES SOO CUTE :D Oh well.

PS I think I made a new BestFriend :]

1234

There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you I love you There's only 1 way 2 say Those 3 words and that's what I'll do, I love you!

Okay. So I blogged earlier in D's Class now a recap of my day. Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOVEY AND MARTIN :D

So today we had practice at MP for Tribes. It was cool to see everyone again. Jam Sessions with Chris are the best! Too bad he was so tired. Cam whore-d with Jovey and just had a fun time. Me and Chris made Banh My Longanisa AHAHA. We sandwhiched Jovey ahah. But yea practice was cool though. I just enjoyed spending time with new friends :].

So like I went over my portfolio idea. And instead of doing the whole lovey-dovey deal, I was thinking do a tribes thing. Like my friends, my new friends, and all together as one family(kinda); MPM. Or just take really artsy fartsy pictures of my friends and I jamming and doing the games and what not. I'm excited for it :]

And yea. Talked to Chris on line today and did some online shopping with him. I want to BUY HELLA SHIT. Ughh I need money. Can't wait for another Jam Session on Thursday and maybe Friday. Exciting stuff :]

Kbye

PS I'm using my twitter again. Follow me :D

Shit

I think I'm getting sick. FUCK! Right before tribes too.

So, lets start off with HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOVEY! I'm wearing my grey ones cause my purple ones are kinda ehhh.

So I missed my ortho appointment yesterday and now I have to reschedual and pay a 25 dollar fine for missing it -_-. On the bright side, I made all three dances :D. I didn't really worry. Kinda, sorta did, but not really. Hella excited. We're going to MP today to practice. I need to print out a song to sing for Jovey with Chris ahahah. Its gonna be hella fun. OH Happy birthday to Martin too. Though I don't really know you, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. And happy birthday to everyone else too :D.

So yea, I love Italian desserts :]. Italian Ice is the SHIT haha. Annnd Noah hahah.

Kbye

PS I want Italian food aaha

Just for Alex

lets wear purple and gold to the Masquerade :D

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention. In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you. You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial. And it's this unhealthy sized ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you achieve. You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy. You possess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define. A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles. Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally! Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

Happy Mothers Day

I guess. I didn't really get you anything because I wasn't home today. But my gift to you is a son who gave you a slightly stress-less Sunday without having to worry about me.

So this weekend was really busy. Tribes practice was interesting. The second part of Secret Place is hella cool. I KEEP MESSING UP IN THE END BUT I KNOW IT! Then my dad was really angry and I didn't know why. So I called Anita for a ride(Btw, IFCKINGLOVE YOU ANITA) and we went to get my vest and tie. Then we went to Kelly's friend's house. Tell me why I was getting the cold shoulder from all of her friends and why I was the only boy. Dinner was good. Prom was alright. A lot of people there can't dance. Its probably why the teachers are so lax. And everything after was chill.

Today I woke up at like 12 and I went to go return my vest and tie. The round trip took about an hour by bus. I was surprised. Then Wilson came with Joe and Pony to pick me up then we went to go get Cang and Anthony. We went around the food court for free samples and I got my fair share of food. Then, off to Kristine's! Pool party was a lot of fun. Got closer to Cang a bit. It was cool. He's one of my ems. Then YM and yeaaa.

I'm able to test for my license on Weds. Hope I don't fail. And REDefine made $4,806 for a whack ass mixer ahah.

And yea.
KBye

Its too early

My dad blasted hie music at like 8 in the morning and I was planning on sleeping until like 10. Thanks. I have a long day ahead.

I'm blogging now because I don't really want to clean my room. I have butterflies and I'm still think about them. That's so bad. Fantasy right there for sure. That song is playing ahah. I woke up to find I fell asleep on my "X" so it showed up to my face.

So I have tribes practice soon. Then pick up prom things. Then go to prom house. Prom! Then Yeaaa. Idk about Van Nghe tomorrow. I want to go but idk. Kristine's tomorrow though. And mother's day. Idk what to get her but knowing my mom, it wouldn't really matter.

Omg Noah. I can't get you out of my mind! Even though its not good. I highly doubt that it'll happen anyways.

*sigh Oh well

KByee

REDefine

was whack. But we made money :D

So I didn't go to 5th or 6th today. Wasn't really feeling well, but I went to Gunderson and caught up with some people. Gave him the tamales I promised :]. He liked them and I was happy, although he was really sleepy. Then he left and Anita picked me up. We went to Indy and waited for Thao. Went to my house to change and then OFF WE GO. We stopped by McFatties and got food. We we're hella hungry, or at least I was. McDonald's wouldn't give me ice! I was so irked. My poster turned out fine. I didn't take a picture though. THE MIXER WAS WHACK. Dj lagged, had messed up speakers, and a fight happened?! Hella lame, but its ok. I was kinda sad. They seemed like they we're avoiding me :[. I had fun though, with Olivia ♥! I didn't get to say bye to either Noah or Jonathan(who by the way I didn't really see once the mixer actually started). Clean up was boring but spending time with Thao and Anita is always fun. I love you girls ♥♥!

So I was talking with my friend, or should I say, my sister, my em, about things and then to my pet hamster, brother of some sort, or actually cousin, about the same things. I think know I got too sprung. I really want to get to know you better. You seem like a really cool person to get to know! I know I may seem boring, but its only because I don't want to look stupid in front of you. Or that I may actually be boring(but hopefully its not this one). I mean I know you we're tired but we can still get to know each other, yea? I got really depressed because, not only did the dance suck, but I think I'm over thinking the everything and possible meanings and outcomes of everything. Like, I'm totally sprung and everything but idk anymore. Like seriously, I never get this shy, EVER. If you ask any of my good friends, I'm really out there and outgoing, but with you, its different. IDK I've been running out of things to say or something. I want to cupcake. I told my ems that I wish I could drive and take my ems, twiins, brother, and senior buddy(I need to think of something to call Joe ahah) on a camping trip of some sort; Like a mini-vacation, which, I think, we all need. It would be great too because like, with them, I don't hide anything(for the most part). They're like family to me, sometimes more than my school friends(Don't get me wrong, I love my school friends to death). We need a sleepover.

So after that whole fiasco, I went through some St Joe's pictures from Anh Hoan and it cheered me up. I miss it all. I need to have another one. Well here are some that cheered me up, a lot :]


Broha and Kenny the Koala

Roman Family Elephant

Pet Hamster/Cousin Mamtara

Red Rad Romans Rockin' that ORANGE; War Tape

Blinded, attacking Rosemary

Boy Worm

Clifford Moded LOL

Fambam with pet hamster minus Broha

Too cute; Cang and Mamtara

Family Love

Family Challenge; Clifford's Hair

Frere Phong! ♥

Mamtara and Cang with Delicious Cow Testicles

Hella Candid

Hai's Face in this

Cold and Nervous to sing on the Left Side

Frere with Hair!

And I think that was about it. Its a lot of pictures, I know. But hey, its a long blog too. K its 143. I spent like 2 hours doing this. Wow GG.

I have tribes tomorrow and PHHS Senior Ball. FML I don't have a blazer.

Goodnight all

PS I was gonna say something, but I forgot. "Noah", I think you're too cute. And,
I love my family of friends. ♥

Codename:Noah

*Sigh

So I've been talking to "Noah" for the past couple of days an I don't know if either of us know what we're really about. Shit though, I got butterflies fa'sho ahah. Sounded hella wierd. You're hella cute ya' know? I really want to see what its like to give you a hug and a kiss and feel your embrace :]
Damn that was hella cheesy. I still can't get your smile out of my mind. HELLA SPRUNG

My VLog needs to upload faster.

Vlog for a Blog

Yea I got lazy to type. No not really. Well yeaa. Noaaaaaaah :]

and yeaaa

THAT'S FOR YESTERDAY :D

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Sawp Cutie :]

So I was up pretty late last night/this morning reading a really good book. It gave me a really cute and romantic idea. I think I'll nickname you Noah, just because that was the name of the significant other in the book. My god, your smile is knocking me off my feet. I'm getting butterflies just thinking about it. I really did wish we could've danced more but we'll make that up this Friday. My gosh are you cute, I'm going gaga. I even got butterflies thinking about you, and I only met you once and that's so bad D: But yes I like you :]

The mixer is coming up on Friday and I'm hella excited. Come and support!



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Thanks Mom

I like the shoes. I don't like the fact that you treat me like a little kid and that, HELLO, I graduate in 6 weeks and you still don't listen to my reasoning. W/e, I just lost my late night laptop time.

Anyways, Fagalag is here ♥! He was asleep so I drew all over his face :D. He says hi and he's sleeping over.

Karate was fail. I was bored, as usual. W/e

K bye

Lazy

So today, I was going to head out to SJ to chill with my fagalag jerkbag bestfriend Andrew, but I got lazy ahaha. I told him this and he was like, "DUHHH". Thanks best, thanks. He's gonna come over I think and we'll hang out at the park or something ahhaha. So yeaaaaa

May

has been pretty good so far.

Friday went to Eastridge to get my tux and hung out with Tina and Alex(and Michelle but not really). The line was crazy long to get the tux. I was like, WTFAAAACK?! Then we went to Tina's to eat and chillax and stuff. Allison Eye's. Ooh how I love our KAT moments ♥.

Saturday was an interesting day. OLP was canceled and I was hella bummed. So I helped out at the makeup practice for Tribes. Left early to go pick up Tina. Chilled, made videos, ate really good Bun Rieu! Got ready and yea! Prom was hella fun! Saw plenty of cuties ;]. And had fun dancing with errryone. The chocolate fountain was fun.

Sunday was my :O day. I slept through my alarm which was supposed to wake me up for van nghe.I woke up at like 1130 and I was like, fuuuck. I missed van nghe, so I went to Tribes practice. I met some cuties there too! Haha the dances we learned were pretty intense. I LIKE IT :D Then yea, went to YM and sat with Tina and Chanda!


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Time

Its 1 in the morning and I'm too lazy to blog.

Prom was fun, update it later